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Friday, June 25th, 2004

(why dont u smile?)

Subject:so....
Time:3:46 am.
i'm gonna give it til the weeekend ya'll...i'm deleting this mother piece sooo please add my new username!!!

soabstract

that's my new lj username thanks all i heart u!

Sunday, December 28th, 2003

(1 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:so...
Time:4:49 pm.
i have moved to a new livejournal...i mean hello opportunity is here and this lj username sux....soabstract...thats my name

WWW.livejournal.com/users/soabstract

dont frget to add me all only friends know about this one okay then BYEE

Thursday, December 25th, 2003

(2 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:....
Time:1:00 am.
i hate knowing information that i dont know what to do with...........

what do u do when two of ur friends are going out and one of ur friends cheats on ur friend with another friend....brian says stay out.....ultimately is that what i should do?? was it even considered cheating??

Sunday, December 14th, 2003

(why dont u smile?)

Time:9:51 pm.
i hope my mom realizes that she's a fuckin bitch

Thursday, December 11th, 2003

(7 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:my week so far
Time:8:36 pm.
Mood: excited.

so it's been like a fun filled week i cant believe it lol well not really fun filled buy quite busy and i dont even know where to start so i'll start on:

monday

  • i woke up and got ready for my fun filled day of school
  • i made my way to brian's area and picked him up
  • i did my first half of my in class essay in english
  • so basically all i have to say is that the highlight of my whole day that day was being able to spend time with brian and wander campus with my beloved brian eric...
  • then i went to work .. BOO TO THAT....
  • work by the way is just fine...

tuesday

  • baby took me to school
  • i had a lab presentation it went pretty well i got an A++++ on it i'm damn sure
  • spent time with brimyster all day it was very nice i loved it soo much ugh quality time with my boy is just oh so wonderful
  • uhmm had work again money money money
  • came home and stayed up all night working on my english portfolio...PBBTHH

wednesday

  • i slept in i had to... i ditched both algebra and history becuaase i was just way too tired...
  • went to kinkos to get my essay binded
  • had an epiphane about brian's xmas gift yehess gooo being crafty!!!
  • got to school and met up with ali
  • we did lunch MMMMM BJ's roast beef sandwich was wayyy yum!!!
  • we hung out and did our thing we went to nordstroms
  • we made a list of things to do and since it was soo totally cool i will post it after my xmas list and what i did thursday

thursday (today)

  • school school school
  • then brian and i went out to eat at this nice lil chinese place WAY yum
  • looked at pets i want a turtle!!!!

so here's my list:

  • playstation 2 (thanks baby)
  • simpsons game (thanks baby)
  • finding nemo (thanks baby!!)
  • roxy luggage
  • roxy planner (thanks tiff)
  • lots of money please lol
  • picture printer (thanks mom and dad)
  • socks i need lots of socks!!!
  • billabong backpack

mine and ali's to do list!

  • take pics with santa
  • color me mine
  • eat at BJ's 5 more times ((heheh))
  • double date in BREA
  • i cant remember the rest u add it ali

i heart u all and i just want u to know that i'm glad that ur all in my life!! have a great xmas

 

okay yeah and one more thing

IM GOING TO THE ERYKAH BADU AND ROOTS CONCERT HELL YEAH !!!! ugh MICHELLE BRIAN AND I WILL HAVE THE BEST TIME OF OUR LIVES WATCHING THE MASTERS AT WORK!!!!


Thursday, November 27th, 2003

(why dont u smile?)

Subject:thanksgiviing....
Time:11:43 pm.
Mood: thankful.
well since the latest trend is listing the things that you are thankful for i'm ready to make my list!!!

i'm thankful for

»all my family especially my parents and my beyond awesome sister, u are one awesome sister tiffany lynne nocon i love you so mumch!!
»my wondeerful beyond wonderful brian, no one can ever know me like you do baby i love you so much, brian is the greatest ever he's there when no one else is able to be there and that's what makes him the greatest boyfriend
»my great and greatest ever friends...i dont have that many and for you guys to be awesome ones means a lot!!
*michelle, my bestest friend, thanks man your the greatest ever and i'm so glad that you are my friend, it's crazy how we've been through five years and i know fo sho u'll be the person i can say that will be my firend forever
*maria, someone hoo relates to me on a level that no one ever will i heart you ma so much!! dont you ever forget that i'm always here for you and i know that i can always count on u to do the same...u rock damnit I HEART U DAMNIT
*ali, ali flanigan man i cant believe how close we've gotten lol you prolly dont even read livejournal, but your one of the people that i am utterly thankful for, you are one fly cat and i'm glad that we're such good friends...SEE SEE ARENT YA GLAD WE KEPT IN TOUCH U GET A SPECIAL NOTE FROM ME!~
»i'm thankful for my education, the education that i take for granted, but hope to take advantage of...
»for all the riches and material things that i've been blessed with, sounds superficial, but damnit i'm thankful for all the benefits i've been given!

»fritzie....i know that things havent been the same since forever, but i want you to know that i really miss our friendship and i'm really thankful for all the thinggs that i've learned from you, and our friendship, youre a beautiful person and i know that one day you will be blessed with all the greatness that you deserve the best of luck to you....
»ava...i only wish that the things that happened didnt have to take place, but i take it in stride, and i know that no matter what i'm thankful for you as well, you and your sister have left an imprint in my heart and we've created memories that i can never ever forget, they are instilled in my memories and engraved in my heart, i hope that you live a life plentiful of happiness and such...have a great thanksgiving!

»okay i'm done

i'm pretty thankful for so many things...but i wanted to let those people know hoo they are....

Tuesday, November 11th, 2003

(why dont u smile?)

Subject:grrr-fucking---grrrr
Time:11:07 pm.
u had the whole day off...fuck you..u had the WHOLE day, i have, from 1015 til tomorrow morning bright and early at 6 in the am

Friday, November 7th, 2003

(1 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:so my hair is shorter now...chekc the randomness
Time:12:34 am.
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Tuesday, November 4th, 2003

(3 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:so i'm trying.....
Time:9:41 am.
Mood: bored.
to learn...
school has been a major bummer as of late but i guess that's my fault in particular....
but the job is relaly good...
unfortunately my check was not as fatty as i hoped...buuuuuut it will be next week i hope i hope i hope!!!
anyways...
i hope everyone's doing quite alright...
i mean aside from school everything is really great...
brian and i are doing quite dandy and i quite love him...
i'm cutting my hair today..
i promised maria i would show her so she will be getting the exclusive sneak preview right after the brimister...
next two purchases...

PUMA weekender bag the huge one
and PUMA brown sweater ((ur jealous because i heart brown))

brian's getting...
DUN DUN DUN NONE OF UR BUSINESS HAHA!!!!!!!!

no really he's getting somefing splenderific and he'll heart it with all his heart....

mawreeuhhh ur the best mama ... heart u damnit!!
michello i miss u mama where have u been all my life????

okay all i'm done with my rant...twenty fuckin moreminutes before i head off to school i love it i love it i love it!!!

Monday, October 27th, 2003

(why dont u smile?)

Subject:ali if ur reading this.....
Time:12:41 pm.
it was so great talking to u...i heart u mama...thanks for being an awesome woman...U ARE STRONG U ARE IN INVINCIBLE U ARE WOMAAAAAAN....okay anyhoo gotta jet to class PAYCE

Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003

(1 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:brian....
Time:11:18 am.
i love u
i miss u
cant wait to marry you!!

hurry baby come to me and hold me in ur arms....

Tuesday, October 14th, 2003

(4 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:lala
Time:8:15 am.
Mood: determined.
yes it is quite early in the morning....
i wanted to take this time out in the morning before class to read my history becuase i have a lot to read...
but hoe well it's all good...
so things have actually been great and i'm really ready to prioritize...
but i should type it here so just in case someone catches me they can keep me in check....
i got a job guys...
foozles in ontario mills...
i will be happy to be receiving some dolla bills...
but time is gonna be cut short and that makes me sooo sad....
brian and i wont see each other as much...
but we'll manage...
and school will be a big pain but i'll manage dude.....
i have to remember that if i fuck up anywhere in shcool...
there wont be any room for work...
so i always have to be on top of my stuffs man...
so when i'm lazy lookin and appharantly online holla at me for reall....
okay all imma go read for history...
please wish me luck at foozles it's gonna be my first job and i'm scared!

god bless...

Sunday, October 12th, 2003

(1 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:i heart this song
Time:1:23 am.
so i have three of the greatest best friends in the world, plus a great sister, and plus an excellent pal....this goes out to u folks this song is called i'm here fgor u by eyedea.....it's awesome! BRIAN, MICHELLE, MARIA, TIFFANY, AND JANINA I"M HERE FOR U!!!!!!!!! UGH READ THE SONG IT ROCKS SUCKAS!


Were all born into this river without knowing how to swim
And eventually we learn how to keep this water under our chin
Some times this river is so cold to be in
Freezing my soul, solidifying my skin
Regardless of how far I see, I never see my travels in
Were carried by the current, being driven by the wind
The scenery we pass, we'll never see again
So we store it up as memories and don't let go of them
Were under a spell thinking the river should go straight
He said, "(holds?) and desire to control our own fate"
But all the pain we experience as a result of our expectations
Because it's the rivers nature to twist and turn
The shit can burn
And I know it
I have the same conflict
But I try to sit and flow with this rivers natural process
And sometimes when I watch myself float downstream
I see the beauty of it all, and it feels like a dream
And at that time I appreciate the rivers course
Some part of God, reality, momentum, force
I stare up at the naked moon, and she stares down at me
(I'll cite false boundaries and all my powers to see)?
The universe is not something separate from yourself
I know you feel alone, but that's why I'm here to help
I know you feel alone, but just look up at the stars
And everything that is out there is what you really are

We gotta learn to see the beauty in each moment of life
Everyone has different pasts and we're seeking the light
The world is divided between peasants and kings
But the truth is everyone is looking for the same thing
Now I want you to know
The role you play is part of the whole
Without you it couldn't be, and I mean that with compassion
So if you need anything, I mean anything at all
I'm here for you; all you gotta do is ask man
I'm here for you, in the same way that you're here for me
Each person in an intricate piece of infinite
I feel that if you could see what I see
Then we as humanity could be free
I'm here for you, not for any self centered reasons
Because existence is interdependent and all related,
Connected in its different manifestations of one single mind
You ain't isolated from the world even though it feels like that sometimes

I see the hurt when I look into your eyes
How you struggle to hold it and keep in bundled inside
It drives a dull blade deep in my heart; it makes me want to cry
So I offer you a hand to help wash away the rainy skies
I'm running out of words, but I haven't yet made my message clear
So if none of this makes sense, I just want you to know I'm here
As a musician, as a friend, as a teacher, as a student
To grow and realize everything is in constant movement
Each problem that we face is just a part of this movement
It seems helpless, but if we stick together we'll get through it
And return to the essence from which we've been uprooted
And wake humanity from these illusions
The second you can look into the sky and see your own reflection
You know your head is in the right direction
The river riding always moves, but with it I live
And everything is perfect, just the way it is

We gotta learn to see the beauty in each moment of life
Everyone has different pasts and we're seeking the light
The world is divided between peasants and kings
But the truth is everyone is looking for the same thing
Now I want you to know
The role you play is part of the whole
Without you it couldn't be, and I mean that with compassion
So if you need anything, I mean anything at all
I'm here for you; all you gotta do is ask man
I'm here for you; all you gotta do is ask man
I'm here for you; all you gotta do is ask man

Friday, October 10th, 2003

(4 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:ups and downs
Time:11:03 pm.
Mood:ugh.
so i'm happy and angry is that possible...
i wont go further...
but let's just say...
i didnt know it was possible to start loosing love for a cuzin that u thought had a heart...
i dont know hoo he is anymore...
but that's enough...
i promised yeah...

but good news..
foozles called me back...
i might get a job...
WOOOT WOOT!
ugh i'm so excited...
hopefully ... ugh and i frikkin heart books....
so yeah...
and it's close,...
baby can visit me whenever he wants.....

so,....
i've actually been keeping in touch with a few of the homegirls...
i'm soo happy to receive the email from miss carlypher!!
i will definitely not ever never loose touch with her...she's a beautiful person dude...ugh u rock!

maego and i are talking right now...
she calms me spiritually...
u rock to ma!!
good luck with thte target thing...
hehe i'll visit for surely!!!!

ALI!!!!!!!!!!!!
aww i heart ali!!
she visited me on wednesday...
we did lunch...
it was yum...
she's soooo great....

chello...
i can never say enough about michelle...
gosh dernit she's the frikkin besttest friend that i've ever had...
we've stuck it out for almost five years...
relatively drama free..
michelle...
u are my other maid of honor when i get married...
it's already decided and that's what i know it's gonna be...
you and tiffany and that's that....
i'm glad that ur my best friend...
no matter what..
and we've gone thru shit to prove it....


maria ma...
gosh arent we like frikkin one in the same?
i think we are...
i see so muuch of me in you.....
i dont nkow...
ur just the best ever...
i'm glad to say that u are truly one of my bestest friend....
i heart u ma...
hahah u got me saying heart...
just like i got u saying awesome....
i apologize however for the lack of fone calls...
due to the fact that well i'm jujst plain gay hehehe okay i heart u.....


tiffany...
my wonderful sister i swear to goshness...
u've gotten me thru some hella tough times....
and i thank you for that...
we've grown so close this year and i will cherish all the beautiful memories we've had...
you are seriously the bestest sister ever...
you top best friend...
your my sister...
your awesome man...
i love u dude!!!

lasstly...

brian eric delgado.......
our friendship has blossomed into something so beautiful...
i cant even explain the extent of love that i have for you....
your my best friend, soul mate, and the mad i would love to spend the rest of my life with...
thru the good and the bad...
you've forever remained the beautiful person i have been destined to be with....
we have faced several challenges in our relationships but here we are...
stronger that ever....
i that GOD every night for the wonderful relationship that he has blessed us with...
i love u doodle]


ugh why am i crying...
maybe because there's this thing...
well this person...
he's my cousin...
i love him...
i really do...
but we've lost him...
i dont nkow who he is anymore...
and i dont want to know who he is now....

i'll be praying for u...............

anger wont get me anywhere

Wednesday, October 1st, 2003

(1 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:hahahah
Time:1:08 pm.
funniest thing ever with jen pro..so i went to meet her for a lil while, because i had to meet my teacher at 1230 and she had to go to class at 1 so i meet her back out when i'm done with my meeting..and all of the sudden i see jen...taking some guys PANTS...yes dont worry the guy had another pair of shorts under...so there was nothing vulgur,...but anyways....man jen pro's got balls...and she made me laugh!! I HEART U even though u wanna punk me bitch!

Sunday, September 21st, 2003

(1 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:michelle
Time:10:15 pm.
u are the bestest friend ever...i heart u!

Monday, September 15th, 2003

(2 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:ackkkkkk
Time:7:26 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
uhmm too bad i'm supposed to be doing my homework right now...
puahaha!
so kris...
is...
not doing anything...
well actually...
talking to first friend right now...
and she's awesome...
everyone's awesome...
i saw brian today that was awesome..
AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!
AWESOME!!!!!!
i love the word AWESOME...
my fasha let my drive the solara today..
am i allowed to say AWESOME one more time...
it was great seeing michelle yesterday...
we had some bonding time yes ma? yes...
uhmm talked to carly lepkowski for like a lil while...
it's delightful talking to her...
memories of old times yes it was...
maego and i talked for seriously two point two seconds...
the sadness but tha'ts okay because she's still awesome toooo.....
so yes...
uhmm i have a lotta homework....
and this is how much i've done /...



NONE AT ALL AWESOME AINT IT!
yeah yeah i've played out the word awesome...
maria loves it yeah she duz lol..
okay bye guys...
sorry for the randomness..
that's me!

(why dont u smile?)

Subject:i'm here for u
Time:12:12 pm.
Mood: blank.
not for any self centered reason....i'm here for u....((eyedea))

that's to u....yeh that's it....bye

Thursday, September 11th, 2003

(why dont u smile?)

Subject:to my first friend....
Time:5:20 pm.
Mood: hopeful.
i love u ma...
know i'm always here....
i know i know....
i'm here...
and she is too........

Wednesday, September 10th, 2003

(3 smiled | why dont u smile?)

Subject:it was an honor
Time:1:34 pm.
i have had the priveledge and honor of knowing cathy keita...
and guess what she was the most beautiful person u could ever meet...
ur smile and ur radiance will be missed...
cathy...
may GOD shower his reign on u...
i know ur in a better place...
spread those wings angel and soak in all the grace...
i love u....

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